"Adulting"

Often times I see memes on Facebook like this: 

Of course, I laugh and agree, but then I think about it and I feel more like this:

Throughout my life, I was always told I was "real mature" for my age. I took pride in that as I grew up. I've met some real immature teenagers, but that's because they are still living and experiencing life. What I don't get is how these adults can still be just as (if not more) immature than the teens!!!! 

Some people are forced into adulthood by one thing or another, and some, no matter what is thrown at them, they just will not grow up. I honestly don't understand. I LOVE having my own. I LOVE being able to say "I did that" or "yup, that's MINE". So maybe that's why I don't understand how people can just sit back and let someone else do all the work. 

I break my back every single day. Yeah it pisses me off that I have to clean these peoples shit(literally), but I'm doing it so I can get ahead. Is it the best job? Hell no. Can I find a better job? Absolutely! But right now, it's what I've got. 

If y'all didn't know, I clean houses. I've been in so many beautiful (and some far from it) houses, that I can't help but DREAM of having a house of MY VERY OWN. I know I'm not getting any younger; I don't want to just BE.

I'm gonna do what I got to do to buy a house. "But don't you and your boyfriend need to be married first?" Who said anything about him? Lol yes, that is ideal and the plan. But let's be honest here, I'm very impatient. And when Jessica wants something, she gets it; no matter what(or how long it takes). I say that to say this: I want nothing more than to be a wife and a mother. And yes I'd like to buy a house with my husband and live happily ever after.....however, I'm not a wife and marriage doesn't seem to be in my immediate future. BUT, what's wrong with ME buying a house for us? 

I have the desire and ambition to have and do whatever I want. I will be a published author. I will have a family. I will have a house. I will get another dog( or five, who can really say). I've spoken this info existence and I know with God by my side, any and EVERYTHING is possible. 

Just something for all those of you out there who are rushing to become an adult- don't. Enjoy your younger years enough that when you become an adult, you can enjoy that too. Is it hard? Harder than you could believe. But at the end of the day, you are your own boss. Can't nobody tell you what to do with your car or your house. After all, it's YOURS. ;) 

For those of you adults complaining about adulting- suck it upppp! You can't go back now! I know I wouldn't want to! Yes, playing games and having sleepovers were simpler times, but you have so much freedom as an adult. So get it together and make something to show for yourself because life will not wait on you to grow up. Before you know it, you've waisted too much and it's way too late. 

Be easy. Stay blessed. 

    -Mz J

Writing

Sometimes it feels like nobody hears me. Or maybe it's just that nobody is listening to me. Either way, writing is the only way I know I will get heard. May not be by the person I want to hear me, but someone will hear me. 

If you ever feel like nobody will listen to you, just know that I will!!! 

This is a short post because I haven't written in awhile. Be easy, stay blessed.

- Mz J

I'm terrible!! :(

Hey guys! Soooo I've neglected you all and I'm SO VERY SORRY!!! If any of you are still out there following me, let me catch you up on what's been going on!

As y'all knew, I quit target to work on my book (which I still haven't got published yet, but I'm getting closer). My boyfriend and I moved back to his town and are currently staying with his mom until we can get on our feet and stable. He's struggling to find a job and I'm working a job that is super hard on my back, but we are still happy and in love. I think we can say a lot of our happiness comes from seeing Jalen's smiling face and hearing his joyful laugh all the time! 

We still have my apartment back in Lawrence(until next month) so that makes things a Lil tough on us with double bills and one income. We are both stressed, but we are making it work and know it's only temporary and our struggle will be over soon; as long as we have God and each other, we can get through it all!!

This move has taught me so much, not only about myself, but about our relationship as well. I'm growing so much as a woman, a girlfriend, and a stepmom. I think it's amazing how God can keep blessing you when you fall short. He has helped me so much during this move because I talk with him EVERYDAY; Ive also learned to listen as well. I couldn't be where I was at if it wasn't for the Lord. 

I hope, if any of you are still reading this, I can inspire you to keep going and never give up on yourself or your dreams. Don't let anyone tell you that your dreams aren't important. After all, they are YOUR dreams so they wouldn't understand. Be passionate, love hard, laugh often. Just know that it may be tough right now, but it will get better! It may be cloudy and rain days or weeks in a row, but the sun will ALWAYS shine again! If nobody has told you that you are important or worth it, YOU ARE! And never, ever forget that!!! I love you all! You guys are the reason I keep going!!! Be easy, stay blessed!

    -Mz J

Missing in action!

Hey guys. I'm sooooooo sorry I've been neglecting you so much!!! I really don't mean to, honest! :(

So let me catch you up real quick! If you remember, I finally quit target and have been focusing on getting Try Me Not ready to publish. My editor had to leave the country so she had to stop editing(which broke my heart because I loved how she edited)! I literally cried when she told me the news. I didn't know what I was going to do to get my book out there. And with everything else going on (I'll tell you all about it in a sec), I was worried my book would suffer. Lucky for me my friend Kayla offered to edit for me even tho she already has two jobs(crazy isn't she?)!! So Try Me Not isn't gonna happen as fast as I want it too, but it will nonetheless!!!!

My boyfriend and I got into a wreck and it totaled my car ---insurance payed off my car, but didn't give me anything else to get a new one(I'm still thankful)! I was so upset and lost; I had no idea how I could get a new car with no money or job. Well my wonderful and amazing boyfriend got me a new car! One that was nicer and newer then the one I had! (He's literally the best)!

Next I was stressing about having to find a job to be able to help him afford the payments on the car. I really didn't want to go back to working a full time job because I would have to put my book on hold yet again and I didn't want to miss seeing Jalen each weekend. Well God is looking out for me in many different ways because I met this wonderful woman named Madison who sold Younique makeup. I talked with her and I was super excited and wanted to join. After talking it over with Jeremie, we decided I could give it a try. I was filled with joy!!!! 

Now I'm waiting for my kit, trying to get people to buy from me, and Jalen is here on spring break. So let's just say I've had my hands full lately! But don't freight, I can't stay away for long!! Hope you missed me cuz I miss you all!! 

Be easy, stay blessed. 

    -Mz J

What's Next?

Hey there. As most of you know, I've been workin on my book for a long time now. I am SO close to getting published. My next book I do not want it to take this long. So that's where you come in. I could use the help!!! I've got over 100 book ideas; some completed, some not. I've made a list of the ones that are mostly completed and need your help figuring out which one to work on next.

1. Broken Boundaries 
     This book is about a Native family who moves from the Rez to an all white town. This is Shayla's senior year and she is pissed she has to leave all her friends. Her parents don't get it either. How can they do this to her during her SENIOR year? She ends up finding a job that summer before school starts and ends up dating this cute white boy she works with. She ends up getting pregnant and keeps it a secret for as long as she can, but of course, it comes out. Her parents disown her and kick her out, she gets bullied at school for being the first one pregnant, and her boyfriend dumps her. What is she going to do, homeless with a baby on the way?

2. What it Takes
     This book is about two sisters Elizabeth and Rose. They live in a mansion with their mother and stepdad who doesn't allow them to have any sort of communication with their real dad. Elizabeth has secretly kept in contact with her dad through email. He has a farm in another town and the step dad is doing everything he can to take it from him forcing him to lose everything. The sisters plan a trip to run away before they found out. Once they get there, they find out, but is it in enough time to help their dad before he loses it all?

3. Through Different Eyes; We See the Same Things
       This book is about Maria, a young girl who moves out of her home town for college and to start a new life. While she was away, her mother became ill and had to stop working. Her dad was struggling trying to pay the bills and keep up with all the medical bills too. They couldn't afford treatment and were about to lose her brother and two cousins who had been living with them for years. She rushed home to try and figure out how she could help. Would she be able to keep her family together?  Will her mom get better?

4. The House Sitter
       This book is about Kelly, a 16-year-old girl who just got a job house sitting and cleaning for this elderly woman while her grandson takes her into town for errands and doctor visits. The house was big and very creepy, with a history that hadn't been too kind. Kelly feels like she is being watched and isn't sure if she's really alone. Weird things start happening around the house that she can't explain. Does she get creeped out and quit, or does she stick around to find out what is really going on?

5. The Secret Teller
       This book is about Blair. A girl with a very dangerous ex. No matter what she does or where she goes, he always finds her. One day she was walking down the street and he grabs her, throwing her into a nearby van. She is terrified, but little does she know, someone saw what happened. This guy decides to follow the van and saves her. She is so grateful to him and they began to start a relationship. Her ex seems to disappear and she is perfectly okay with that. Out of nowhere, her hero's little sister gets kidnapped. Blair has a hunch its her ex, but how does she prove it? How does she get the little girl back before it's too late?

6. Race Never Ending
       This book is about Carter. She's full blood Native American however, she doesn't know anything about her history.  Her parents split when she was young, both remarrying people who were not Native and choose to keep their tribe from her. She starts having dreams and in these dreams a wolf starts showing her pieces of her past. The dreams are very cryptic, but she pieced together that she was supposed to save her tribe that she knew nothing about. Would she be able to face her past and everything out in time, or would she have failed her tribe?


There you have it guys. Pick which one you think I should work on next. The titles are a work in progress so those can be changed too. Can't wait to see what you all think !!!  Be easy, stay blessed.
   -Mz J

Finding work

Hey there followers. As most of you know, I was lucky enough to be able to quit my job a couple months ago. I had been at my job for five years and I just wasn't happy; at all. My boyfriend saw that and became my knight in shining armor. I've really enjoyed not working. I've been able to relax, work on my writing, and enjoy time with my little family.

Of course, all good things come to an end, right? It's about time I start looking for a job again. However, since I've enjoyed being home so much, I'm looking into work from home jobs. I've been doing a lot of survey taking apps on my phone- some of em you actually make real money, others you make points that add up to gift cards or on pay pal. Granted I'm making decent money/points, it just takes FOREVER to actually 'make' any real money.

It's pretty stressful looking at all these sites that offer work from home. Some of them are scams of course, but some of them are legit. What I've ran into is that most of them are phone based. You would need a landline phone of course. There are some that are non-phone based, but a lot of those you need a degree in the field you are applying.

I've been finding a TON on Pinterest so I'm attempting to try some of them. We will see how that goes. Hopefully I can get it figured out sooner rather than later so I don't have to go out and find a real job. =)

That's all for now guys. I will be writing more later. Be easy, stay blessed.

      -Mz J

A sisters bond

Today I got to experience something I never thought I would. Today my sister and I got parts of our matching tattoos! I got to experience her getting her first tat! It was a fun day and I'm super glad it was able to happen despite the few road bumps we had!

Yes I really do have a sister! I may not have talked about her much before because We didn't grow up together or even in the same town. But that never stopped me from loving her. Now as we are both getting older we want to have a relationship. Personally I think it's going pretty great!!!! 

Just thought I'd share since I'm so happy!! Be easy, stay blessed. 

   -Mz J