Nobody but ME

So I've been thinking. Throughout life we meet a ton of people. Some for a short time. Some for a long time. Some we like. Some we don't. But no matter what, we are all different. We all see life differently. We all handle things differently. Things effect us all differently. 

I say that to say this: being different is okay. I know how I am and I know I'm different then a lot of people. At times that gets me down. I feel like I'm crazy for feeling a certain way or for letting certain things bother me that don't effect other people. But I'm not them; I'm ME. 

I'm a writer so I have no trouble expressing myself in any type of way; good or bad. HOWEVER a lot of people can't handle that. So then I would think "maybe I need to change. Maybe I should stop my feelings. Maybe I should stop expressing them".  But let's get real. If I did any of that, I wouldn't be me!!! And i kind of like being me! :) 

There's also another reason I've grown to become very expressive (I wasn't always like that actually). My grandma called me one day while I was away at college. She was out of town visiting my aunt so it had been awhile since I had seen her.  She called me and I rushed her off the phone because I had to finish a paper that was due. She was sad I could hear it in her voice but I promised to call her back and read her my paper after I got done( she loved hearing what I wrote no matter what it was). I couldn't wait to read it to her and tell her about how much I missed her and couldn't wait to see her when she was gona come home that weekend. So I was rushing through my paper when I get a phone call. My mom told me my grandma passed away. My heart broke. I had so much to tell her. And the last thing she remembered was me being too busy for her an rushing her off the phone. Since that day I've made it a promise to her that I would never be too busy for the people I care about. I also promised myself that I would tell people how I felt no matter what because I couldn't live with her not knowing how happy I was to see her. 

If you died tomorrow, would people you care about know exactly how you feel about them ?  Do you make time for those people you care about ? 

I may take it overboard sometimes but least people know exactly how I feel all the time. That's enough for now. Be easy, stay blessed. 

  -Mz J