I've been "big" all my life. But Im looking at myself in the mirror and I feel disgusting. Im so sick of people telling me "you're huge" "you could stand to lose weight" "you're pretty for a big girl". Like what is the purpose in that? How come I have to be "pretty for a big girl"? Why can't I just be pretty? How is any of that going to motivate me to workout? It only motivates me to be stubborn and try to prove to them that im not effected by what they say. Which results in me not doing anything to change how I look.
As Im doin workout videos I have had, most (if not all) have woman six packs, or flat stomachs, or are the size of my left thigh. As im doin these workouts im thinking to myself "I'll never look like any of these women". I would be so much more motivated if I seen a "bigger" woman in these videos doing the workouts. Id be like "if she can do it in front of all these skinny heffas, I can too" :)
Social media doesn't help with weight loss either. You see people bashing "bigger" men and women all the time. Where is the support? Why can't we put in as much energy as we do to tear people down to build them up? Encourage them?
My Instagram if full of fitness people. I thought "hey if I follow fitness people it'll motivate me to workout and eat right". But let's be honest, it doesn't. Only because im like three times the size of these chicks I see and half the food recipes they put up the food looks nasty (im a picky eater which is another part of my problem). Also I hate the "day 1, day 30" pics they do from their workout plan Bcuz in day one they have a flat stomach but by day 30 it's more toned. I want to see a "bigger" person having lost some weight. A "bigger" person showing me they were big like me and busted their ass and lost weight. Then I would be moviated. Im clearly following the wrong people on Instagram (I'll fix that and tell you if it changes my weight loss journey).
I've also noticed (this may jus be me) but talking about your weight loss issues, goals, desires with someone who supports you completely helps. My boyfriend thinks I'm beautiful the way I am but he sees how unhappy I am with how I look. He told me he will help. Told me he will work me but I have to be willing to bust my ass. All my friends tell me im beautiful and not "huge" like I feel. Let's be honest, I need a positive push to get back at it. Having a workout buddy helps too. My man lives outa town so we won't be able to workout together all the time(he's gona make sure I workout on my own) but soon as my best friend has her baby and can, she's gona be my workout buddy!! My weight isn't effecting my health (yet), but it wouldn't hurt me to shed a few pounds to become healthier to prevent anything from becoming a serious issue.
I feel like losing weight will help me love me more. Doing this for myself and nobody else will make the end result that much sweeter. Im gona take my time. Im gona do what works for me. I will keep you guys posted and I hope I can inspire someone (even if it's only one person) to take control of their life, to fall in love with themselves again. Be easy, stay blessed.
-Mz J.
Set short term goals. As short term goals are accomplished they stack up to long term results. Start by giving up all beverages aside from water or water with lemon. It's a small step but as the pounds come off from that one step it'll be time to take another step. As all of these baby steps add up, you'll start walking by mirrors and not recognizing yourself. This is what worked for me. Everybody is different but don't measure your success off of someone else go at your pace because these are your goals. Don't get discouraged because what works for someone doesn't work for you. Recognize that this process is hard but it is very possible for YOU. This is something that you can do, as long as you genuinely want it and are willing to work at it. It is work, but it might be the most beneficial work that you will ever do.
ReplyDeleteWell jess I am proud that you are getting back motivated again!! I am too ..ur dad is my inspiration. He get's up faithfully and goes to the gym. I have started walking of the mornings since the weather has been nicer. But you hit the nail on the head when you said that you were doing this for YOU!!! You are the only one who can change it. But like you said you have to be willing to bust your a... you can do it and you don't need anyone to do it with you....just hold you accountable!!! I am all by myself when I walk so you can do it!!! I will keep motivating you and also HOLD YOU ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS!!!!!! lol As always mom is proud of you and YOU CAN DO IT!!!! love you...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for those encouraging words!!!! Im going to make some short term goals. Im going to try my hardest to not get discouraged. Hearing positive things like what you said helps restore faith in myself. I can do this!!!! :)
ReplyDeleteMom!! Thank you so much. It means a lot. Im proud of you too. Love you!!
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